New Changes & 28 years

I am 4 hours into my 28th birthday. And let me just say that this past year was one that I never expected to happen. But, I fought through and am still in the process of fighting and winning my battles. My battles are not easy, for me or for anyone else who is going through a trying and hard learning experience.

And while I cannot drive anymore, the meds are making me into a person I'm not and I am still have some troubles, I am ALIVE, and I honestly didn't think that I would make it through this past year. God has been with me every sense of the way and HE has NEVER left my side.
This past year has tought me more about God, prayers, friendships, relationships, and so much more.
God has led me to a church where I feel accepted, even through my medical challenges. God has taught me that even though "church going Christians" are out there, there is a difference. A difference in saying "we care for you and are praying for you" and a difference in showing "we care for you and are praying for you." God has tought me to accept people for their differences and is teaching me to let people accept me for my differences.

Blogging through this past year has helped me so much this year. Blogging is my way of "escaping" and getting my feelings and emotions out. So, I say thanks to all those who read and sometimes comment on my blog.

Where do I see myself in a year? I have no idea. I want to go back to work, but as long as I am on pain pills and can't drive that is not an option. I have been thinking about going back to school, but my mind has to be alot more clearer than it is now. I want so many things right now, but I have to take life one day and step at a time.

A New Year, A New Me

Well, I wanted there is less than 12 hours left to 2008, and I am SO glad. 2008 has been the hardest year I have ever had to go through. With 3 deaths in the family, spending 4 months in the hospital, having major surgery, being so sick and near death, and so much more, but through it all there is one thing that I have learned: God will never leave my side and He is always there for me. I know that if I weren't a Christian and didn't know God that I wouldn't have made it.
So, what does 2009 hold for me? New changes. For starters, I have joined a gym. It's small, and less than a mile from my house, so I will be working out weekly, and I hope to loose some of the weight that I have gained these past few months. I am going to start volunteering with MOPS again, and I am so excited about starting that again. I am going to start my homeless ministry again. After reading "The Purpose Driven Life" a few years ago, I felt God calling me to make care bags for the homeless. Included in them will be, but not limited to: a bottle of water, crackers, clean socks, a tract, and other small food items. I am meeting with a guy who owns and runs a homeless ministry called Mobile Loaves and Fishes, and hope to get any other info for starting my ministry.
I have made a decision about what church I feel that I belong to and should be at, so I am excited to see how God will call me to get involved at church.
I am going to have alot of dental work done in the next few months to fix my teeth. My health is settling down. I hope that once I start excercising, I will start to feel better physically and emotionally. My best friend quit her job yesterday and is going to college, which means that will be able to spend more time together. I'm going to start working again, but only part-time.

I hope that 2009 is so much better than 2008 was. I wish you and your family all the best in the new year!!!

"In Christ I am a new creation. The old has gone and the new has come again."
2 Corinthians 5:17


PS: Baby Stellan is doing better. Last night he was able to drink breastmilk for the first time in days, his oxygen stats are improving, and his color has returned to normal. Check out his page for more updates.