Struggles

While I don't want to go into details, I am here to admit that I am really struggling. Physically, emotionally, mentally, and spirtually. Having a chronic medical condition is HARD. Being in constant pain is HARD. Not having a church family, for the 1st time ever, is HARD. Not having the support system that I once had is HARD.
Please keep me in your prayers as I continue to go through life. At this moment, I see no light at the end of the tunnel. October has been hell month for me, with 2 surgeries and 2 nerve blocks, and 3 trips to the ER. Novemeber doesn't look much better, with spending ALOT of time with the family, traveling all across Texas, finally burying my grandfather; I see a very tiring month ahead and don't know if I have the stamina or strength to keep up.
I have been traveling on this "new" road for 18 months now, and while I didn't think I'd be on this road for this long, I don't know how much further I can go.

Please pray for strength, for change, for me not to lose hope.